Thursday, August 13, 2009

Mixed Emotions

Next week, Jimmy and I will celebrate our 10 year anniversary. Just saying it makes me feel old. On one hand I'm proud not to have become a "statistic" of divorce, but on the other, I'm kind of sad to be "Old married." I can honestly say that I'm more in love with him now than I was 10 years ago, but it's a different, stronger emotion. The trials of infertility really drew us closer and made us rely on each other and God more than ever. When we became parents, my heart swelled to the bursting point with pride for the dad he is and will be for our son. We are taking the plunge and leaving the baby for the first time to go NYC (my favorite place in the world) for a long weekend. I am slightly nervous, but not panicky. My main concern is that the plane will crash and we'll both die, leaving Hudson an orphan. Crazy, right? I have really thought and prayed about it and realize that to be good parents, we need to keep cultivating our love for one another. We have only been on ONE date since he was born 8 1/2 months ago! NOT GOOD! So, while it will probably be a difficult separation, I'm excited to be spending a little couple time with the man of my dreams! Hudson is very lucky to have a mommy and daddy who love one another. Sadly, one day he will be grown and gone, and we need to not be so consumed with him that we can't properly care for one another.

1 comment:

  1. every bit of this is soooooo true! try to relax and enjoy yourselves!